tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-29146488807863132582024-03-20T17:17:03.884-07:00Paul BlaisIf life is a journey, then let us walk together for a bit.Paul Blaishttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10039530900420165132noreply@blogger.comBlogger174125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2914648880786313258.post-42906504546160369312013-09-28T06:13:00.001-07:002013-09-29T06:45:45.326-07:00And Then It Was Thursday<div id="fb-root">
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Hey friends. I think it is obvious that I have taken a long break from writing here. I kind of needed a break from cancer. It had kind of been consuming my life. I mean, I had the two original surgeries, and then the recovery, and then the stent removal... That was a tough day. I wrote about it back in April in a post called <a href="http://paulblais.blogspot.com/2013/04/sunny-and-dark.html" target="_blank">Sunny and Dark</a>. Cancer had returned. It was spreading around my bladder. A beautiful spring day full of bright sunshine clouded over with emotional storms of frustration and fear. And the funny thing is that it happened on a Thursday.<br />
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Isn't that an odd day for anyone to discover that cancer had returned? I mean, the weekend is just around the corner. Thursdays are time to kind of start the gearing down from all the hustle and bustle of the work week. Just one more day left to the family fun day, the weeds in the yard, sweeping the garage floor, and taking the dog for a long walk. Plus a Thursday is right after hump day. Monday through Wednesday are the days most people are in the thick of it. Working the fingers to the bone is the norm. Watching the clock and anticipating the tick and the tock of the march toward that glorious moment of quittin' time. But that is the anticipation of that part of the week. Thursday is supposed to be that day of hope. We survived thus far, and it looks like we are going to be making it. We can hold out one more day. Hope wells up. Friday's a comin'!<br />
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So you see why that is an odd day for bad news. Give me that bad news on Monday, for crying out loud! Then you can say, <i>Typical. What do expect for a Monday.</i> Tuesdays are perfect- <i>I just knew it. I just knew it. Yesterday was too good to think this was going to be a good week.</i> Anything can go wrong on a Wednesday- <i>I knew I wasn't going to get out of this week alive.</i> Fridays through Sundays we are too distracted to really notice and all the doctors have taken those days off any way, so it is nearly impossible to get too much bad news on those days.<br />
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But I digress. I try to click away on these black keys of my computer trying to make light of the fact that cancer had returned. And the simple fact was that it was a dark day for my soul back in April. In fact, that darkness continued on for quite some time. Don't get me wrong, hope abounded. A fighter I would be. Get up and do what is needed. Go through the next treatment.<br />
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My doctor told me that this treatment is amazing- Bacillus Calmette-Guerin, BCG for short. Funny thing is nobody used the full name of it. When I asked my doctor what BCG stood for, he kind of wrinkled his brow and tried to say the name and then just he couldn't remember even though he was constantly having the treatments administered to his patients. Stink, I had seven installments of the stuff into my badder and I still had to do a Goog search (misspelling intentional for effect. Trying to sound cool even though I am well past the age of cool) to find the full name of the treatment. And the stuff just kinda works. It seems to strip away the lining of the bladder wall and put your body in hyper infection fighting mode and punch cancer in the face. I say <i>seems</i> because nobody really knows how it works. I watched a video from the maker of the stuff and they readily admit, "We don't know why it works..."<br />
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During this time I was basically off work. I had back-to-back surgeries that put me out for 6 weeks at a time. Then I got into the BCG mode which puts you out for about four to five days a week. The whole process was essentially a little over five months long. That is a long time to go with out a real paycheck! Can I add a couple more exclamation points here for added emphasis? !! I am self employed. That meant no unemployment insurance. That meant no money coming in. That meant financial turmoil.<br />
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During that time I started to think of a way that I could make a living even if my body wasn't going to be available to help. So I started <a href="http://www.doubtthedoubts.com/" target="_blank">Doubt the Doubts</a>. The idea was ( and I won't go too deeply into this here, but...) that I could help inspire others to go after their dream, while building a platform to produce an income that doesn't take my body being in tip top shape. If my brain is good (Okay. Just stop the wise cracks right now!), I can work. That was the idea. And the show has been a huge success- not financially ($65 so far), but in terms of impact... Literally the number one podcast in iTunes for eight weeks (the max length of time that iTunes allows) in the New & Noteworthy section- and that was out of over 15,000 other new podcasts! The show is a hit. But an income from it is still a ways off.<br />
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So I put all my extra effort and time into building Doubt The Doubts. So PaulBlais.blogspot.com was put on the back burner. I stopped doing the Friday Flicks. I stopped writing articles. I stopped just about all of it and went full throttle on Doubt the Doubts. I've rarely even been on Facebook. If I have extra time, I spend it on the new venture because, well to be honest, I didn't know how long cancer would be gone or if it would even come back. I just knew that I was already in financial ruins so I had to act. (BTW- If you haven't already, would you please go to iTunes and give Doubt The Doubts a 5 star rating and a short review. That favor from you makes a huge difference in my little life. If you do this for me, please conclude your comments with "Pulling for the show." That way I know it is from this article. Thanks in advance.)<br />
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I had a full three month break after the BCG. It was glorious. No dumping things into my bladder. No feeling sick. I could go about my life and put in the normal sixty-hour-work week. And I felt fine. Except for a side ache. It never has gone away. It feels like my kidney is bruised. Doc has looked and tested and all is good, but still... Then there have been the constant phone calls from bill collectors (five months off work), the pressure to get cash, meet everyone's expectations, the inability to catch up, the feeling of deep despair, the heart attack...<br />
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Did I ever tell you about that? It was about a month ago and I woke up in the middle of the night with intense and horrible chest pain and was rushed to the hospital. I thought I was going to die as Jennifer drove me to the hospital. The last place on earth I thought that I would go to meet Jesus was in front of Safeway. But there I was looking out the window groaning and clutching my chest and Safeway was right there.<br />
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Turns out it wasn't a heart attack, or at least they don't think it was. I was supposed to get some tests done, but I refused to go deeper in debt just to get bad news. I mean a trip to Hawaii would be worth a little more debt. But a stress test? Just don't see the value in that. Plus I already knew I was under a lot of stress. And my side still hurts.<br />
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This past Wednesday marked the end of my three month hiatus from cancer treatment. That was another stress. One of the last things the doctor said to me before my treatments were completed was, "You've got an eighty percent chance of the cancer coming back." What!? Kinda takes the fun out of all the sickness from the treatment knowing that it might not even work. That anticipation kind of added to the overall stress. So Wednesday the doc did a new scoping of my bladder. Then sometime soon my BCG would start back up again.<br />
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The thing is, we saw a new tumor. Clear as day. Growing with gusto. Cancer is back. And it was a Wednesday. Just what you would expect for a Wednesday. And I tried not to cry... again. Bit my lip. Talk matter of fact. "Well, looks like we gotta do something." (shaky voice mixed with confidence). I don't think the nurse nor the doctor bought it. He informs me that it is time for a new surgery. Then recovery. Then new round of BCG. Taking time off work. Something that I can totally afford (tongue in cheek).<br />
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I left the room and found Jennifer waiting for me. She saw it in my eyes. "What's wrong, Paul?" "The cancer is back." "We'll get through this. You're a fighter. We'll be fine." How does she find such strength? Wow.<br />
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I woke up that day after Wednesday. A heaviness in my little world. Facing a new mountain to climb. And then it was Thursday.
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Sometimes it is best not argue.<br />
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Need a new work out routine? Then this just might be for you. Let's stop talkin' and do some watchin'!<br />
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Here's one from Ellen<br />
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Want to make a promise? Just remember that trust is a must.
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I grew up with a big brother. Kirk. We were just two in the mix of six kids in our household. Three boys and three girls. I was the middle boy and fourth down from the top. Kirk was the second born. He was a pretty good big brother. All the neighborhood kids used to play football on the lawn of Crestview Elementary School across the street from our house in Vista, California. If one of the bigger kids was picking on me, Kirk would put an end to it. I was off limits to bullies when Kirk was around. But I was not off limits to Kirk.<br />
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Before we moved to the house across the street from Crestview School we lived on Spires Street. At the end of Spires Street along side of Melrose Drive was a gully that ran the length of the road. For most of the year the gully was dry and full of weeds. But part of the year the gully would flow with water. A favorite activity during this run of water for the neigborhood kids was to get rocks and mud and make a dam across the gully. The water would back up and we would get this little pond of gutter water going. Then we could float sticks in the pond and pretend that they were battleships and tankers and aircraft carriers. If we were extra enthusiastic, we'd "recruit" a few ants to be the crew members of the ships.<br />
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With sticks set adrift and each stick having a full compliment of crew members scurrying about their decks, the battle could begin! Each kid would gather their weapons and then chose a vessel to attack. A hand full of gravel and sand thrown side arm was like gun fire from an airplane and a<span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875);"> rock became a bomb. <span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875);">The little kids, like me, were limited by our strength in the size of the bombs we could drop on the fleet, whereas the big boys could wield the bigger rocks and drop the A-Bombs that would destroy entire fleets. <span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875);"> Usually we took turns dropping the bombs. Splash! and a ship was destroyed and the ant crews were plunged into the sea. They tried to swim to shore, but we'd just drop more rocks and dash the hopes of those little ants. Eventually the pond surface was covered with the carnage of motionless ant bodies bobbing up and down up the ripples of the pond.</span></span></span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875);"><br /></span>
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875);">One particular day I was in the water setting things up. Kirk was standing on a wood plank we had laid across the gully for better bomb dropping. He was holding the biggest rock he could carry over his head. His wobbly little elbows were straining to keep control of his ultimate A-Bomb. He yelled at me to move, but I paid him no never mind and went about my business. He told me he'd drop that rock on my head if I didn't move. Again, I kept to my task. I just knew he was bluffing. I mean, who would drop a rock on someone else's head? Kirk would, and he did.</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875);"><br /></span>
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875);">The rock landed on my head and I went straight to the bottom of the pond with the rock settling on the top of my head. Kenny Gunney and Robert Hall jumped into the water and pulled me out from under the rock. I came up from the water coughing and bleeding and crying. Meanwhile Kirk was defending his actions from atop the plank, "I told him to move! I told him I was going to drop the rock on him!"</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875);"><br /></span>
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875);">So I was fair game for Kirk's bullying, which I am sure is true for the world over when it comes to big brothers. What I didn't know was that all that picking on was prepping me for bigger battles. </span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875);"><br /></span>
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875);">As Kirk got older his interests in playing football across the street on the lawn of Crestview School began to wain. He found other things that caught his interests so football was now played on my own. The Blais brother team had split up, which in turn resulted in me being fair game to the bigger guys that wanted to throw their weight around the field.</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875);"><br /></span>
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875);">Charlie Mineir was a year older than me and bigger by a good twenty pounds. For some reason he had got a burr under his saddle and was gunning for me. He was on the opposite team and at each line up he made sure he was lined up with me. With each hike of the ball Charlie threw his body at me and tried to run me over. I was intimidated and tried as best I could to avoid the rough collisions. Eventually I just got mad and mouthed off at Charlie. Charlie took that as a challenge and came at me with knuckles flying.</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875);">One thing that ought to be explained about Charlie is that he was a first born. Timothy was his younger brother. Timothy was a scrapper. A year younger than me and fearless. Nobody scared him. Why should they? He had Charlie prepping him for the worst by being the worst. Charlie took his physical size as being all that was needed to win the fight. What he didn't take into account was that I had been trained by Kirk.</span><br />
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So here's one for the big brothers. Cheers to you and thanks for making life a little harder. All of us little people just thought you were picking on us when all the while you were actually helping us develop. I'm sure it was all part of your over all plan. Y'all toughened us little guys up and helped us to become a little more scrappy, a little more able to take on the bigger challenges. Because of you, the little guy can win. I am stronger because of my big brother, Kirk.
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<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Now I get it. When I was younger, I didn't understand Peter. He was funny. He was adventurous. He was brave. But... I just didn't understand his way of thinking.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">But not Peter. He liked being young. He liked being a kid. He liked the adventure of now not next year. And he stayed there in the forever now and never grew up. Fighting pirates and flying above the trees and befriending mermaids and caring for the lost boys. The older I get the more Peter seems to have found something very special. The older I get the more I realize it is just a story- a fairy story complete with its own fairy, Tinker Bell.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I am middle age. In that limbo age between young and old. It isn't like middle earth that Tolkien wrote about. Middle earth had mystery and adventure and drama and Hobbits (little guys with big hairy feet). There is no mystery to middle age and the adventures are meeting the bills and life gets filled with habits (little behaviors that that perform a brainless feat). This is the time of mid-life and that crisis that compels some to get a Harley or a Corvette or a brunette. It's a grasping for Peter's hand. To be pulled back into perpetual youth.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Interestingly enough, Peter Pan was written by a middle-age man. J.M. Barrie was well entrenched in his 40's when the play came out, and had just crossed into his 50's when the novel was produced. I wonder if he could have written the story line in his 20's when his future had more distant horizons than his past. Was Peter perhaps a longing of his own heart to capture a little more life than was allotted to him. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">There is a tipping point in those middle years when you look to the horizons of the past and future and you see the latter is closer than the former. A realization settles in that you just don't know how far out that future horizon is. If anything goes wrong, then it could be closer than we think. A clogged artery, a mistake while driving, or (in my case) cancer and that horizon could suddenly be upon us. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I think the mid-life crisis is a symptom. I don't even know if it is grasping for perpetual youth- it would be nice, but who really wants to live through acne again. No, I think it may be more symptom of what one in my age group has not come to terms with- an expiration date, the lease is up, our mortality. That's why we have a crisis. We are not settle that we are really going to die. Yes, we middle-aged folks have know this in theory all our lives. But practically? I don't think so. It isn't settled in our minds as of yet. It is to be avoided. Run from. Delayed. And that encroaching horizon is intimidating. So we have the crisis of fear.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I imagine that those that are living the sunset years have their mortality more settled in their minds. The crisis has passed. Acceptance is the norm. So they have a bucket list. Much different than a mid-life crisis which is rooted in fear. A bucket list is based on the love of life. It has at its core the idea that life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away; time is limited, so let's live. I like that. It has hope rather than dilemma. I like that a lot.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I think I'll go ahead and skip the crisis. I am going after the bucket list. Peter can have his forever now. Today was worth leaving yesterday for. And for tomorrow I will gladly leave today. I am even warming up to getting settled in with my mortality (which is still way out there!). I may end up with a lot of the same things on my bucket list as I did on my crisis list, but it will be based on the love of life rather than the fear of losing it. Life is good, let's live.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">My Bucket List:<br />Eat ice cream with Jennifer in Italy.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Walk my daughter down the isle.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Tell stories to my son's children.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Publish a book.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">It's short, but there's time to add to it.</span>
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I've always like slap stick comedy. Here is some smack spoon comedy.<br />
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Sometimes you just gotta hang it up and hang one on.<br />
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There's cute, then there is adorable. This is adorable and will have you smiling.<br />
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A cancer patient got together with the staff and made this video of fighters. I love it!<div>
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Not only can he play the guitar, but he wears a cool hat!
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Any time you can put into words what animals are actually saying, it's a good thing.
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I think this just may border on cruel... that's why I love it!
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Discovering my cup has an unknown substance in it... after I drank all the milk out of it.<br />
Stubbing my pinkie toe.<br />
A police car behind me... even if I'm not doing anything wrong.<br />
Asking when the baby is due, and she isn't pregnant.<br />
Getting a sliver under a fingernail.<br />
After a lifetime of not wearing glasses, having to wear glasses to read (thus I squint a lot).<br />
Opening the freezer door and seeing a complete lack of ice cream.<br />
Running out of gas.<br />
Okra. 'nough said.<br />
Having an itch inside my nose. It's hard to scratch it without looking like I'm picking it.<br />
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I had a step dad. His name was Brad. Actually, his name was Clyde, but when he was just a little guy, he decided he didn't like the name Clyde. So he changed it to Brad. I know a couple people that didn't like their names so they just changed it. I tried it once.<br />
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So Greg and I decided that I was going to start going by Blais (sounds like Blaze). I practiced- "My name is Blais. Paul Blais." I added the pause, "Blais... Paul Blais." I included one raised eyebrow, my left eyebrow. "Blais. (with a slight pause, hand put out in expectation of a firm hand shake, and raised eyebrow...) Paul Blais." We laughed. But we also knew it was going to be effective. I was going to be the man of mystery.<br />
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The next person we met was a customer that we were assigned to wire his house. I put our plan into action. Greg introduced himself and then it was my turn.<br />
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"My name is Blais. (see action list above) Paul Blais."<br />
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"So, you go by your last name, huh. That's interesting. Have you done that all your life?"<br />
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I glanced over at Greg and he was trying to cover his laugh.<br />
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"Well, it's just my name."<br />
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Bond never had to explain. He was just Bond. Strong. Bold. Bond.<br />
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Our new friend continued, "I've known a few people that went by their last names. But they usually had an odd first name that they didn't like. But Paul isn't a bad name. Do you not like your first name?"<br />
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Going by my last name was supposed to be a statement not a conversation starter. The mystique was dead. But he was a customer and I was his electrician for his home. And every time he referenced my name in conversation Greg would laugh. If Greg wanted to poke fun at me, he'd just call me Blais.<br />
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In these past few months I have wanted to change something more significant than just my name. I wanted to change my life story. I wish I could remove the relationship I have with cancer. I wish it wasn't a part of my life. I wish it was as simple as just saying it wasn't in me and it would be gone. Poof!<br />
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But here I am. I am still just plain old Paul. And I'm still facing cancer. The only mystery about all of this is the<i> Why?</i> I've been asking myself that question, <i>Why me?</i> 9 out of 10 people with this cancer are over the age of 55 and the average age is 73. That's decades away. So why me? Typically it is a smoker's cancer. I'm not a smoker. I live a relatively clean life. So why me.<br />
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After my first surgery I just didn't do a lot of research. I just went along for the ride to recovery. It wasn't until I had my second surgery that I started researching. I found that last year 72,570 cases of bladder cancer were diagnosed, and 15,210 died from bladder cancer. I also discovered that bladder cancer has a 50 to 80% recurrence rate. I thought that was exceptionally high. It turns out that this cancer has the highest rucurrence rate. My heart sank when I read that. Then I wondered how the percentage could have such a crazy spread- 50 to 80%! Why the 30 point difference? So I researched why and found that that if the tumor was in stage 1 and was a large tumor, then the chances of it coming back was 80%.<br />
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When I first read that statistic about five weeks ago, my eyes lingered on that 80%. My heart didn't. It started to race in circles. It ran to find cover. It tried to find a way of out. It tried to pretend I had a different story. <span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.292969);">And that's when the ax showed up for the first time. I got a picture in my head of an ax that was poised over my head and was just waiting to drop. </span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.292969);"><br />
</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.292969);">It dropped the other day when the doctor was taking the <a href="http://paulblais.blogspot.com/2013/04/sunny-and-dark.html" target="_blank">stent out</a>. We looked around the bladder through the lens of the scope and saw that the bladder was speckled with cancerous growths. Everywhere the lens turned there was another one or two or three. <i>Why me?</i></span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.292969);"><i><br />
</i></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.292969);">Lately I'be been looking around and seeing other people that I feel would deserves my pain instead of me. Look, I know that that is a way bad thought. But it has rattled around my dark little heart. Why not the drug dealer? Or the man that beats his wife? What about the incestuous uncle? I have often thought the pool of humanity could use a little more chlorine from time to time... but <i>me?</i></span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.292969);"><i><br />
</i></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.292969);">I am not the only one that wrestles with that question. In fact, there was one person in the Bible that faced that question head on with Jesus. It was Peter. Jesus had just finished telling Peter how Peter was going to die. Peter immediately started looking around until his eyes settled on John. After a quick inventory of who was the better of the two Apostles Peter concluded that John definitely fell short. <i>Why me? Why not him?</i> was the sentiment of Peter's next question to Jesus. But Jesus would have none of that.</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.292969);"><br />
</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.292969);">Jesus looked directly into Peter's eyes and said, "If I want him to remain alive until I return, what is that to you. You must follow me." </span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.292969);"><br />
</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); -webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.292969);">I am learning something very hard to </span>fully grasp. My story is <i>my</i> story. I cannot shift it to another. It is mine. And, who am I to say who should get the tough things of life instead of me. Someone once said that if I knew the whole story of another, even the worst of us, then I would have nothing but compassion for that person. After all, isn't that how God feels towards all of us?<br />
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</span>So its my story. Plain old Paul Blais. I'm not going to try to escape. I'm not going to search for another well deserving recipient. There is no mysterious why to be answered. I will instead look for the how. How to move on from here and win. <br />
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This guinea pig isn't just an pretty face.
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<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Yo! Here ya go.</span>
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